Over-Examination

I am a free spirit
Or am I?
What lies inside me?
Am I dark 
Or am I light?

I used to move 
Through this world
Like a dove
Loving it all
Not overthinking
Floating 
In a warm current
Of gentle intuition

Things just were
One way
Or another

Softly moving
Nothing jarring
Everything working
The Way It Was Meant To Be

Until the sky became black
Knowing became nothing
And over-examination
Everything

Life beneath the microscope
Every decision 
Forensically examined
Every thought 
Analysed 
And over-analysed
Every feeling judged

Small facial expressions
Might make or break you
Use of one word or another
Revealing 
Your True Nature

Every cell, and fibre 
Thought and nerve
A delicate rain drop
That could be crushed
In an instant
And change 
The course 
Of Everything

Tip toe forever now
This land is made 
Of egg shells

Speak softly now
This world is an
Eternal china shop

Your voice might
Hurt those 
Around you

Don’t stand out 
From the crowd now
Someone might hurt you
Or hate you
Poisoned 
Forever 

Place your face 
To the mirror
Of Judgement

Look at yourself
Change yourself
Understand yourself
Analyse yourself

Think about 
Every step
You take
Every decision 
You make

Do nothing 
Without thinking
About it
Over and over
And over again

Til your mind 
Becomes a ferris wheel
In free fall 

Til every option 
has been Exhausted
Every stone turned
And turned 
Worn down
Into nothing

Til there is 
Nothing
Left of you
To be examined
Anymore.